SUNSHINE

I'm waiting for sunshine
but I don't know how
to keep warm through this winter
or to smile through its gloom
I don't know how
to stand through this storm
or to find the purity in the snow
I'm losing my grip on patience
and lady-luck knows not my name
I'm giving up on it all
because to wait for this sunshine
is as aimless as running after shadows.

GOD TALKS TO ME

God talks to me,

No, I’m not insane

But He does talk to me

No, not about you or the world

But about me

And only that matters to me

So don’t ask me about your future.

I’m no physic

God talks me

We find ourselves talking about loads of things

Most times people have found me muttering to myself

I smile at the invisible

I can suddenly burst out in tears

I can attack both physically and verbally for no cause

Yes, I do fight with my God.

We are like family.

We biker,

We yell,

We scold,

We give each other silent treatments

Yet, we love equally as much.

God talks to me,

Not when I’m in need only

We talk when I’m happiest the most

Because when I’m sad,

It comes naturally that we don’t talk

For a good friend knows when to keep quiet and just listen.

God talks to me.

IF WE REALLY HAD TO LOVE US

If I really had to love you

You wouldn’t be my first choice

‘cuz you know how to hurt me

You know how to make me want you

You know how to make me mad

You know how to love me

Yet you know how to knock me off my feet

If you really had to love me

I would be you first choice

‘cuz I’m the gal you mama warned about

I will make you beg on bended knees

I will make run in circles

I never make up my mind

I will run off with others just to prove

that I can leave without you

I will test you for life itself

I will want you to show me over and over again

how much you love me

I will make you tired of us

If we really had to love us

Guess it will be worse than karma

We will just torment each other

We will cry forever

We will yearn for more

yet we we’ll give so little

‘cuz we can’t love each other

We’re like night and day

We’re never meant to be.