What is this that pulls against my chest?
Twisting with each breath,
with each beat
I cringe with leaking eyes
praying not to lose myself
Vile burns my veins
blood turns to ash
I let out an agonizing scream
to shake my heart
to scare it into stopping this madness
Inviting darkness and murder
will only bury us further in this personal hell
I breathe deep...
in heavy highs and painful lows
and wait for the demon to subside
But hope goes away on its own
for no one can out run the truth
Broken hearts never mend
So in tears...
in blood...
my heart...
and I...
will forever be dead.
Sunday, November 17, 2013
Friday, October 11, 2013
GOOD OR BAD
God, his plans, and Satan's snares
play our souls like dice
We live for heaven in this hell
with odds that keep changing
Even saints have no answer
as to why one should rise
and another should fall
Look at a mother with child
Her heart a naked burden
Fear of the unknown
keeps her guessing at the darkest hour
One can only ask God for that much
the rest is up to a game with fate
Going from here to the grave
Clocks keep chiming
drawing cracks in weak souls
We dust our acts by the second
breaking our backs for a legacy
hoping our end is not now
because no one knows if
they've earned a good name
in the eyes of God.
Friday, June 21, 2013
TO STRANGE MIRACLES
To
give back
To
love more
To
shadow the rain from your eyes
To
smile in the morning sun
To
go a distance
To
folk tales around camp fires
To
ignite all that you touch
To
accept new beginnings
To
laugh until you’re breathless
To
paint your toes
To
crazy pranks
To
hold hands with best friends
To
bungee over that edge
To
interesting gossip
To
see your breath in the cold
To
proclaim your love
To
discover foreign lands
To
understand loss
To
a nice breeze
To
aim for the top
To
run through sprayed perfume
To
forgiveness
To
creativity
To
a trusted guide dog
To
win a competition
To
see the world from the edge
To
kiss under fireworks
To
walk in another’s shoes
To
watch the clock
To
great music
To
kind neighbours
To
blow out candles
To
sail away
To
swing your feet
To
breathe deeply
To
follow your dreams
To
run to a rescue
To
go down on one knee
To
know enough is enough
To
enjoy a meal
To
long conversations
To
soul searching
To
pure wine
To
inside jokes
To
family reunions
To
long hugs
To
sing along
To
feel beautiful
To
brain freeze
To
new faces
To
be strong
To
be free
To
invisible friends
To
doing more
To
silent journeys
To
strange miracles
Tuesday, April 30, 2013
STILL FIGHTING IT
This
could have been a love song
But
you’re tossing and turning
I’m
barely hanging on
The
truth is…
Time
can’t heal us
At
least you’re a persistent
with
your empty ways
I’m
just one more casualty
I
didn’t listen to caution
I
fell like debris
I
crashed in to your cold heart
thinking
I was ‘that girl’
who
could change you
show
you that it’s okay to be happy
You
would have given us a chance
if
I had been more than just a phase
My
mind read more in a simple gesture
You
led me on
You
lied to me
Now
you’re breaking me
I’m
raged,
I’m
burned,
I’m
lost,
But
most of all…
I’ve
learned
that
I’m nothing
that
you will forever fight it
that
you will never feel deserving
that
you’re so far gone
I
could cut myself down
I
could count my scars
from
the delusion
that
used to be us
I
could set you free
I
could leave you in peace
with
your dead world
the
only problem is…
I
still believe in us
and
it hurts too much.
Tuesday, March 05, 2013
LOST IN AN ECHO
I’m
leaving for the end
I
don’t know where I will find it
but
I’m hell-bent to fight
I
don’t care if I have
to
wrestle the angles to the ground
or
to look the devil in the eye
I
will give it all that I have
for
something to replace your dead heart
I
walked with the darkness
wondering
what awaited me
the
yearning devoured my soul
to
a sheer emptiness
That’s
when you held my hand
I
was as helpless as a child
You
reminded me to look around
In
that light,
you
embraced me
you
buffered my falls
you
decided where all the pain went
And
when I got well
We
came out and saw the stars
We
lived like it was the first time
smiling
when the sun found us home
I
wouldn’t have it any other way
In
that life,
I
held on hope, I breathed easy
I
dreamed
Watching
my newly found life
I
didn’t want us to tear away
But
my heart knows banishment
like
a sailor knows the sea
I
have been down the rabbit-hole
more
than I can count
So
I know you need someone too
You're
lost in an echo
of
what I used to be
I
don’t know what I’m searching for
May
be I’ve got it all wrong
but
I know one thing for sure
I
won’t come back empty handed
I
will find you a phantom
to
hang in your room while you sleep
to
protect you from the monster
under
your bed.
Thursday, February 14, 2013
EVERYTHING IS LOST
I close my eyes and count
one to ten
I pretend that all is okay
dragging myself to a common ground
I say those words that make me cry
Promises mean everything
to give me a glimpse of happiness
to give me a focal point
to keep me alive
Behind closed eyes
I can hang on for a better tomorrow
I can brush off misfortune
I can be everything
I want to be
my will is in overdrive
I dream big
but when I open my eyes
It doesn't come easy
all I have left are dreams
It's like fighting the wind
the more I hope
the more it actually sucks
From where I'm standing
Everything is lost
I pretend that all is okay
dragging myself to a common ground
I say those words that make me cry
Promises mean everything
to give me a glimpse of happiness
to give me a focal point
to keep me alive
Behind closed eyes
I can hang on for a better tomorrow
I can brush off misfortune
I can be everything
I want to be
my will is in overdrive
I dream big
but when I open my eyes
It doesn't come easy
all I have left are dreams
It's like fighting the wind
the more I hope
the more it actually sucks
From where I'm standing
Everything is lost
Sunday, January 13, 2013
RANDOM LINES
I'm going under
Like a virgin sacrifice,
I lay my body out
on a slaughtering board
.............................................
How do I know you're not far away?
I'm holding your hand
but I know you're not here
We've been pretending for so long
Tell me something
But I don't want you to answer
yet I want to know so badly
probably it will hurt less
Tell me the day you fell out of love with me
Please don't say
I will just hurt more
I need you here
I need you now
Let us return to our old times
like nothing happened
I will even use this broken glass
to write your name across my heart
across every part of me.
I want you here
You can't leave me.
.......................................................................
Hey Valentine over there
are you going to mend my heart?
You said you wouldn't want to see me heart broken
but what's this pain tightening in my chest?
Now I'm running blindfold
like a fool I shout against love
Because of you I'm down again
like you're eyes were close when you
when you promised me forever.
I need to run out of here
go anywhere else but near you
I need to find my peace to live
to lick my wound dry
......................................................
What am I looking for?
This earth is virtual
there's nothing real under the sun
I want to awaken from this inception
to see what my life is really like
In this space....
I chase dreams is grasping the wind
it provides me no hope
it permits me no optimistic isolations
of what I have and what I have to do
but abundantly grants me pain
...............................................................
Strange tides drew me to your shore
welcoming like the white sands under my feet
I bid myself to stay
to find I'm standing in your presence
He bid my heart rest well
I say whatever!
No one can tell me if we have heaven
No one can tell me if angels' tears are for me
.........................................................................
I'm a doll made of glass
owned by a careless child
She hold me by my neck
my feet scratching the floor
The ankles are gone
..................................................
Forget me like yesterday
because am just a speck of dust
just passing through
Like a virgin sacrifice,
I lay my body out
on a slaughtering board
.............................................
How do I know you're not far away?
I'm holding your hand
but I know you're not here
We've been pretending for so long
Tell me something
But I don't want you to answer
yet I want to know so badly
probably it will hurt less
Tell me the day you fell out of love with me
Please don't say
I will just hurt more
I need you here
I need you now
Let us return to our old times
like nothing happened
I will even use this broken glass
to write your name across my heart
across every part of me.
I want you here
You can't leave me.
.......................................................................
Hey Valentine over there
are you going to mend my heart?
You said you wouldn't want to see me heart broken
but what's this pain tightening in my chest?
Now I'm running blindfold
like a fool I shout against love
Because of you I'm down again
like you're eyes were close when you
when you promised me forever.
I need to run out of here
go anywhere else but near you
I need to find my peace to live
to lick my wound dry
......................................................
What am I looking for?
This earth is virtual
there's nothing real under the sun
I want to awaken from this inception
to see what my life is really like
In this space....
I chase dreams is grasping the wind
it provides me no hope
it permits me no optimistic isolations
of what I have and what I have to do
but abundantly grants me pain
...............................................................
Strange tides drew me to your shore
welcoming like the white sands under my feet
I bid myself to stay
to find I'm standing in your presence
He bid my heart rest well
I say whatever!
No one can tell me if we have heaven
No one can tell me if angels' tears are for me
.........................................................................
I'm a doll made of glass
owned by a careless child
She hold me by my neck
my feet scratching the floor
The ankles are gone
..................................................
Forget me like yesterday
because am just a speck of dust
just passing through
2012: A YEAR OF LIVING
2012,
you just crept in
I almost didn't see you
I had had such little hope in you
I had had such little zeal to live
I had actually not made any resolutions
but you showed me that
there's more to this than just the end
2012,
the year of the apocalypse
the year I lived
the year of party crashing
the year of pizza hunting
the year of taking risks
the year of first times
the year of death
the year of babies
the year that almost sucked
the year I graduated
the year that rocked
the year of new hope
Good bye and good night.
you just crept in
I almost didn't see you
I had had such little hope in you
I had had such little zeal to live
I had actually not made any resolutions
but you showed me that
there's more to this than just the end
2012,
the year of the apocalypse
the year I lived
the year of party crashing
the year of pizza hunting
the year of taking risks
the year of first times
the year of death
the year of babies
the year that almost sucked
the year I graduated
the year that rocked
the year of new hope
Good bye and good night.
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