EVERYTHING IS LOST

I close my eyes and count one to ten
I pretend that all is okay
dragging myself to a common ground
I say those words that make me cry
Promises mean everything
to give me a glimpse of happiness
to give me a focal point
to keep me alive
Behind closed eyes
I can hang on for a better tomorrow
I can brush off misfortune
I can be everything
I want to be 
my will is in overdrive
I dream big
but when I open my eyes
It doesn't come easy
all I have left are dreams
It's like fighting the wind
the more I hope
the more it actually sucks
From where I'm standing
Everything is lost