REDEEM ME

Redeem me,

if it’s the last thing you do

I stay out all night

waiting for you

over your stone

scratching at dirt

knocking at hell’s door

Redeem me,

you took me away

with your last breath

my heart is done

You left me nothing to love

nothing to hold

a shell for the world to mock

I’m an emptiness

that knows no end

Redeem me,

I have no place to call home

to find peace

to rest my tired soul

my days are haunted

my nights are long gone

a demented lost man
I've become

Redeem me,

to live on like this

forever searching

a chasing after speeding shadows

I’m better off dead

next to you

under matching stones

I WEAR A SMILE

I wear a smile

For the world to see

Like the colors on a clown

Just a mask

Over my deepest fears

My inner most insecurities

My darkest pains

To seem well

Just to seem strong

I wear a smile

To endure the day

To hide my ever verging tears

Not to draw unwanted questions

Those answers I will never find

So like a flag

Going only where the wind goes

Is my dead core facade

I wear a smile

To fit in with the happy norm

And that’s the closest you will come

To knowing me

To truly ever see

Who I am on the inside

Because the truth is not here.