DARK SORROW

Depression looms around me like the very air I breathe
Making my sorrow louder than my scream
I came to terms with my end
for shadows have been after me for ages
I'm going down below for sure
This heart beat let it just stop
It's only crushing me with each pulse
sending a hurricane of darkness down my veins
Let me cross over to the other side
it will stop this pain
All this sorrow I've endured in life
only death can bring me true peace
Does this mean there's nothing worth living for?
There must be something
but death chose me
staying will only complicate things
I'm on my own death list.

NOW YOU'RE GONE

I can tell you're slipping away
When I hold your hand the tingling is gone
When I kiss your lips the fire is gone
In your eyes the glitter is dimming
and at your neck the pulse is decelerating
I know now you're gone
words can't sink it in farther
Our connection hanging by a thread
I will not fight this fate
for destiny is not a friend of mine
and a stranger you will soon become
I will watch you go
the ache in my heart will kill me
but that will not show on my face
I will smile as we agree to just be friends
but deep down I know you know
that is going to remain in words
Once you lock that door
you're out of my life forever
I will brave the aftermath of a heartbreak
for time can heal all wounds
especially now that you're gone.

LAST NIGHT

Last night, I missed my mother's womb
I went to bed sad,
alone I curled up like a fetus
and cried
It wasn't cold
but I shivered to my last bone
because of a pain in my heart
A pain with an idiopathic origin
but everything that crawled this earth
seemed to sparkle it off
Last night, I missed my mother's womb
its warmth and protection from the world
that hurts me so.