LAMENTATIONS OF A BROKEN HEARTED GIRL

I feel my heart breaking again
and eyes fill with tears waiting to be cried
I spent lonely months as an outcast to your heart
screaming out for you to let me in
I tried so hard to be a person you could love
but I guess playing nice has a fail at some point
All I wanted was to be a part of you
But, I got the inception of what my life could have been
A seat on the shelf of eligible girlfriends
I got memories from a broken past
I had hoped that this once you could be on my side
I had hoped that you could look at me differently
I had hoped that you could love me
Oh, how love can lie!
I'm letting go
I'm letting you fly free
hoping you find what you're looking for
I'm willing myself to hurt
because I know the pain won't last
I'm staying here with my big heart
that never learns when to stop chasing love
that never knows when to stop believing.

A GLIMPSE OF MY FUTURE

I was still short
I was still unmarried
I was still lonesome
I was still broke
I still did everything in a pattern
I still walked around with my flower
I still went to bed by 08:30pm
I still had two tosses of bread for dinner
I still walked around with a malignant lack of self-esteem
I still walked around alone
I still found comfort in an old pair of jeans and baggy t-shirts
I still sat down on a carpet to watch T.V
with the attention of a watchdog
I still had no sofas
I still stayed at the pathetic quarters
I still slept on a four-inch bed
I still chased rats around the small house
I still spent my weekdays watching the ceiling
I still hated weekends
I still hosted men over but none ever spent a night
I still never had friends visiting
I still used kerosene to cook
I still worried about my weight
I still did not watch the news
I still woke up cursing the world
I still hated existence
I still had no dreams
I still blamed my past for my fruitless future
I still never called home nor friends or work
I still went home on seldom days
I still did my job with a smile on my face
that never touched my eyes nor my heart
I still longed for the day my life would begin
I still longed to make things right
I still told myself I will be better when I'm older.

SH!T

Sh!t, Sh!t, Sh!t
Friends or foe
Me or them
Kill the bastard
I'm in line like anybody else
When did it get to this point?

Sh!t, Sh!t, Sh!t
The road has been made
The path has been drawn
It's goodbye now
Why did I let it get this far?

Sh!t, Sh!t, Sh!t
The past is in stone now
The pain has come and gone
It's gone and gone it is
like a shooting star
Gone is the day we will be seen again.

Written by: Davidson Mugume

BREAK THE CYCLE

Come on,
Let us get out of here
they don't want us any more
their words are no longer whispers
their eyes are no longer kind
their actions are no longer gentle
Let us run away and not look back
let us leave this place like we never knew it
Their faith is so unclear
their hearts are so burdened
We can't fake this.
Let us break the cycle
Let us elope and never return.

Come on,
let us be good
we can embrace this
let us be the first to know
the happiness in true living
following the light into the sunset.
telling stories to strangers
along this path we're deserting
may be we will save a life.
Run off with me in to the horizon
I'm tired of the rain over my head
I'm tired of the guilt in my heart.

Come on,
I can't take the madness
I can't face the hurt
because I'm not attached to this place
any more
We can control our future
I have a choice
You have a choice
Please, elope with me
Don't think
just break the cycle
and remember.....
Don't keep me waiting,
I can go on without you.

A BLUE SUN

The sun is blue

a blue sun it is

You might want to argue with me

but this fight you can’t win

I saw it blue

smiling over the prairie

daring the ocean to denounce its colour

scaring the flowers never to show

even a blue rose is that rare for sure

The sun is blue

in the very epitome of the word

I’m waiting for the day you will see it too.